Motherhood

It's 2am now and I am finishing up this post after feeding Jillian. I am also awake coz baby Mabel is crying in the next room. She has been crying quite a bit at night and we suspect it's due to her teething.

The Internet connection has been restored today after the TM staff came by to check the tel wires. Connection has been bad for the past one week and then yesterday, we couldn't even hear the other party on the telephone. Turns out the tel wire outside the house was old and affected the connections.

I then checked my friends' updates on FB when I chanced on a note written by a junior in Poly. She had given birth about three weeks after I delivered Jillian. We had exchanged a couple of notes since we're delivering about the same time. Turns out she had a near death situation after the delivery of her #2! She's OK now, recovering and trying to gain strength again.

Motherhood is an arduous journey for some. Not every woman who wants to have a child can get pregnant easily. And being pregnant doesn't necessarily mean a baby will be borned. Reading my friend's notes reminded me again how blessed I am with Jonathan and Jillian. Although I may had a scare during their deliveries, they made it into this world safe and sound.

I give thanks for everyday and the small things, like

• Jon's cheeky dimpled smile - that's a cute abnormality
• Picking up after Jon - while he's up to mischief and/or minor destruction, it means he's up and able to walk by himself
• Jillian long feeds - she's able to drink, just very slowly and ladylike
• burping Jill half an hour after putting her down coz she couldn't burp earlier - at least I know what's wrong
• Jillian's small fussing after sleeping for only half an hour - the chance to pick my baby up and hold her close to me

Here's Jill happy after her evening feed.